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Rain.

Flashes of lightning and the rumble of thunder with the steady patter of raindrops bouncing off the windows.

The world outside is stormy and wet.

Meanwhile, I’m comfortable and dry inside my hotel room under the covers of a king size bed with 7 pillows surrounding me.

In the morning, I’ll wake up, turn on CNN, take a shower, get dressed, eat breakfast and get driven to the office.

I’ll work all day in the office, call a cab, get driven back to the hotel, go to the lounge to get a glass of milk and a bottle of water, then go back to my room and order a plate of fruit and chicken/rice/beans from room service.

Another day will end and the routine will repeat itself again on Friday.

Where am I going with this post?

I think my life is caught in fast forward and I’m not sure what to do about it… or even if I want to do anything about it.

Comfortable.

I think that one word pretty much sums up how I feel towards life right now.

If someone were to bother to ask me how I’m doing… I’d probably answer, “Ok.”

About a month ago, I started writing a post… it was supposed to be called “Deep Thoughts: A mid-year review for 2007″.

I never got around to writing it though.

Life is in fast forward.

Happiness. The pursuit of Happyness. Joy.

Hmm.

But back to the rain. Not only is it stormy and wet outside… it’s also dark. Sometimes, it’s dark not only because it’s night here… but because the electricity goes out pretty regularly in this country.

I think this might be the story of my life.

The world outside is dark and stormy and a difficult place for millions, if not billions, of people. There are countless souls who are lost and hopeless and needing something to fill the emptiness in their lives. They need Jesus.

Then there’s me. Supposedly, I’m living this fairy tale life. A glamorous life of travel and seeing new places and all that…

Actually, it’s not all that it’s cracked up to be. Perhaps it sounds appealing to those who’ve never really had to travel much… but it’s really not that great. This is the 4th different bed that I’ll be sleeping in in almost as many nights… and in the past 6 days, I’ve probably spent some 24 hours traveling by subway, car, train and plane back and forth from home to/from client sites and hotels…

But anyway… while the world outside is dark and stormy, I’m nice and comfortable .

I think it’s a bad place to be.

No serious issues. Work is going well, albeit a bit chaotic at times. Friends, well… I never see them anymore. But I’ve gotten used to the solitary life. Not to say that I enjoy it… but it’s bearable. And I’ve found a new hobby that allows me to experience nature while meeting new people and that I can enjoy while I’m young and free.

In the eyes of the world, maybe my life is glamorous. Young, single, relatively successful, without anything hindering me from traveling to and experiencing exotic locales… life is good.

Yet, there’s something lacking.

Well, other than the obvious lack of almost all human interaction outside of work… I lack what I desperately need most.

And that’s the problem.

As much as I say I want to change my current condition, I’m too comfortable to do anything about it.

Perhaps this is how Satan disarms God’s people and makes them ineffectual. By making my life so easy and comfortable… he’s managed to take me out of the race.

Where have these past few months/years go? I’ve already been out of school and working for over two years…

Where am I going next? Can I somehow refocus and redirect my energies into serving God and seeking to honor Him?

Or will I remain complacent and just let life pass me by…?

Life is too short to not live it to the fullest. I wish I could do something to get myself outta this loop…